It was about 10 years ago when I started taking Percocet for chronic pain. At first I was taking it as prescribed by my doctor.Shortly after I was pregnant with my second daughter. As soon as I found out I was expecting I quit taking them.That lasted for about a month and I was hospitalized with some kidney issues and they were giving me demoral.
When I was released from the hospital I continued once again with the Percocet. I justified taking it through my pregnancy because I was getting it from a doctor. After my daughter was born was when I started getting worse.
Before I knew it I was taking double what I was prescribed. I went to the doctor and told him it was not controlling my pain as well and he increased it.
As they say addiction is a progressive disease. Within years I had gone from taking 4 percocet a day to when I entered treatent because I was now taking 480mg oxycontin, 3 20 mg oxy IR, 4 ativan and about 20 tylenol a day. My addiction “owned”me. I lost my marriage, my home and my youngest child because I wouldn’t stop using.
In Jan 2010 I finally hit my bottom and I went to treatment because my parents were going to have my other daughter taken away.They detoxed me over a 5 week period and was released from treatment after 68 days. I realized I had not only done this for my children but also for myself. If I hadn’t gone they said I would have maybe lived for another 2 weeks.
Today by the grace fo God I am just over 10 months clean and my life is amazing.Some days are more difficult then others but my worse day clean is better then my best day using. I carry the picture they took of me the day I entered treatment because I never want to forget what it was like, I was a extremely sick person who had aged amout 20 years. I still suffer from a lot of chronic pain due to health issues but it can be controlled without narcotics.
Recovery has been an amazing journey…..one that I never want to end. I have my children,my family ,my friends and most importantly my life back. I hope and pray that my story may show even one person that anything is possible if you want it.